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2020-12-20 Stand in the Mirror and Wait for Feedback
Sunday again. Lacking sleep again. Still working on that lecture. On and on. I’m trying not to freak out. You know, but there’s so much to do. Res. GLR. Christmas. Bills. You know I’ve got bills that are like 60 days past due and I can’t even begin. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.…
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2020-12-19 Christmas is Slithering Near
See what I did there? Oh last night I just got seriously smashed. I mean, it doesn’t take much these days. A half a bottle of my favorite red wine, Jam Jar, which is sweet and goes to my head almost immediately. But its sweetness also probably contributes to the midnight wake up with a…
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2020-12-18 Time Doesn’t Give a Reason
It just runs and rolls and takes the days away. Years lost inside fragments of fractured mirrors or broken bottle glass strewn across the lawn, bits so small and clustered they look like the tee-box of hole nine. You know the one. Hard as hell to hit from because of the stampede of cottonwood trees…
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2020-12-17 One Way to Save a Life
It’s December 17 again. I see the calendar and think, “This day again.” We all have them. A day in time, a date on the calendar we recognize immediately, a date that takes us back to the past. We may have several, but for me, December 17 will always be a day that gives me…
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2020-12-14 What is Above and Below the Fold
You’ll never know because I’ll never remember. When I wrote this morning.. I wrote for an hour. Something about a procrastinations and lists that somehow led to writing about sharing my poetry with Jim, even the ones covering topics that might not be to his taste or worse, make him uncomfortable. Blah-blah, woof-woof, and then…
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2020-12-14 Never 🚫 Ever 🚫 Use Evernote 🚫 Ever!!🚫
No no no no no NO NO NO!! I’ve just lost an hour of writing due to a glitch in the Evernote app so this is the LAST note I will ever type using it. Last time this happened, I vowed that if it ever happened again, I was done. I’m so mad I could…
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2020-12-12 Poetic Rejection
I woke up at 4:30. Wrote a reply to Mr. SCC, feeling enough time had passed and some response was the best course. If only I could say what I want without giving the wrong impression. And why I worry about that is mysterious to me. I’m my own worst conundrum. I went back to…
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2020-12-10 Musing from Inside the Promethean Gap
Is it wrong to approach the world, tentative and wanting? Believing in good intentions and people? That we’re all just stuck here temporary and harmless, abandoned on a mysterious spiral arm of stars? Is it wrong to believe in the power of human connection, however small. The innocence of it. The delicate nature of trust.…
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