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2020-12-20 Stand in the Mirror and Wait for Feedback
Sunday again. Lacking sleep again. Still working on that lecture. On and on. I’m trying not to freak out. You know, but there’s so much to do. Res. GLR. Christmas. Bills. You know I’ve got bills that are like 60 days past due and I can’t even begin. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.…
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2020-12-06 Catharsis
Writing, sharing, and letting go. Yesterday was good and necessary. The Funeral service was good. Strange to see so many people gathered together in close quarters. Strange to see so many people but not recognize them for the masks shielding their faces and emotions. Jim called the funeral home which was in Iowa to ask…
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2020-12-05 Stranger than Fiction
It’s 3:30am and I’m headed into what I hope is the last long day of a string of long days that has left me sleepless, and full of Negative emotion. Yesterday was the first day I didn’t go across the river to CB and the plans I tried to make with my brother didn’t pan…
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2020-12-03 Two Fer One Thursday
Yesterday was another long day that moved faster than the normal speed of time. A late morning request led me back across the river to a floral shop in CB followed by a late lunch. Second day in a row inside a restaurant. Not sure how I feel about that. I also picked up my…
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2020-11-27 Save Room for Pie 🥧
Lots of folks lament about not being able to spend time with family for the holiday, or maybe lament isn’t the right word. We’re past lamenting and have arrived at heavy sigh. Truth is, though, I’m grateful for not having to go to some family gathering. I’m sure I’m not alone in that sentiment. How…
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2020-11-22 Flip to B Square
It’s been a good couple of days. I feel satisfied. I’m adding up my stats today, to report out to my accountability buddy how I did this week and it looks like a pretty “meh.” But still I feel ok. Ok is pretty good, you know, all things considered. 🤷♀️ I have to be kind…
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2020-11-19 And Just Like Snap…
Nothing like getting news that wrecks the day. That was 1pm yesterday. I ignored a call from my ex-husband in the AM. One call gets dismissed automatically, because of conditioned behavior. I’ve learned that whatever that first call is, wait, and it could resolve itself, or simmer down, or be a possible a mistake/butt dial…
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2020-11-16 The Distance is Taking a Toll
I can’t reach my oxygen mask. Blurry, I stretch toward yellow and white plastic dangling near me. But its A rotten banana peel hanging from an empty Wal-Mart sack. It turns brown as the tips of my fingers poke at it, trying to get a grip. I read a poem about a boy revered by…
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