2018-02-18 Sunday Status Update – Ugly, Uglier, and Ugliest

Oh how I have missed you, my sweet, beautiful elliptical machine. I know I’ve been gone for a few days but I promise you there were no other machines involved.. just people, work, wine, and a successful visit to the Red Cross (not in that order of course).

The stat at the top of my Sunday lineup is my hemoglobin. 12.9 and over the threshold of the 12.4 required for donating blood. That was yesterday and now I can put that on the back of the shelf along with my iron supplements. At least for about 6 or 7 weeks.

(Ugly – The return of the daily headache)
Noteworthy in the supplement department is the fact that I ran out of Curcumin (a turmeric extract) which I’ve been taking daily for several months now. I’ve been on my soapbox on this topic several times so I won’t repeat myself. However, the supply ran out and as the consulate analyst and experimenter I decided to take the opportunity to see what effect not talking it would have.

I’m not kidding.. a couple days and my daily headaches returned. It could be other variables like hormones, too much or not enough caffeine, not enough sleep, alcohol, stress, but it is too much of a coincidence to dismiss. A few days of that and turning back to Tylenol and ibuprofen had me running my fingeres to that “one click” feature in Amazon to replenish my supply. I’m day 3 back on it and despite drinking too much wine last night, I woke up headache free. Huzzah. I’m a believer.

The quickest jump from that is to take inventory on my other analytics.

Steps are back up this week.. 20K average per day but jazzercise class counts are still down because of other commitments.

(Uglier – The human garbage disposal)
Healthy eating was literally not on the table this week. I over indulged in just about everything I fancy and I’m going to go ahead and blame the deprivation caused by that Whole 30. Cookies, chocolate, fried appetizers, cheeseburger and fries and onion rings dipped in ranch dressing, fried rice, fried potatoes, and bread. All that was in addition to my new found, high calorie, favorite breakfast. Eggs, guacamole, salsa, potatoes, with or without bacon. Oh and did I mention the alcohol? 🍷 🍸 🍹

I’m in need of a serous course correction… on that AND sleep. I had an average of 5 hours and 50 minutes a night. That’s terrible. I guess making bad decisions was a theme for the week. My time in on my studies was shit too.

I should be spending 20 hours a week minimum on writing, revisions, and reading and I bet I only spent 4 at the most. I currently have no way to gather official stats on that. I could record it like I have to for my job I guess. But manual time cards? Ewwww!

I worked 22 hours which is right around that sweet spot and I have no excuses for not reading more for school. I guess I spent too much time texting with my new crush. Can I really have spent that much time texting? Not possible.

Oh yeah.. relationship status. Still single. Surprise, surprise. I cancelled my meet-up with Simon Tuesday and met him Thursday instead and it felt very much like meeting with someone you just have no desire to talk to. I was nice and the conversation was very much one-sided as I expected. I followed up later that day with a book of an email I felt compelled to write so I could say (almost) everthing I’m too chicken shit to say in person.

I didn’t say “hey, I don’t want to be friends”.. but my hope is that a person who is as perceptive as he says he is, could read between the lines. I honestly didn’t care if he responded, but I underestimated his instincts to counter my observations in an attempt to maintain his superiority. Ooops. There I go again saying something not nice.

He wrote back quite a bit and his disappointment in me and what I wrote came through loud and clear. There were a few things I could not let go, so I did reply back standing my ground on two main points. I picked my battles and I will not back down on either of them.

One was about my daughter and just don’t even try to fuck with me about my teenage daughter and our relationship and my parenting. Just don’t. The second was about his inability to define our relationship and not owning up to the fact that he used it to release himself from any responsibility to another persons feelings.. MY feelings. That’s total crap and he needs to know it. I sent that back last night and as of right now have not yet received any response back. Perhaps I will have the last word on it. I really hope so, but we shall see.

(Ugliest – Negative Self Image)
Related to my status on all fronts.. I’m just feeling generally not great about the way I look right now. I’m feeling sort of unwell and tired and bloated and frumpy. I’m definitely in need of some positive reassurance. Valentines day alone doesn’t help. Seeing couples holding hands everywhere doesn’t help. Don’t get me started on the affect of media, social or otherwise. I just want to turn it all off. Add to that the fact that I’ve gained some weight recently and don’t like what I see when I look in the mirror. OK, I’m a thin person by nature, but that just means that any fluctuation at all and my clothes start to become too tight and uncomfortable. I suppose the binging on food this week did not help and the fact that I’m still thinking about loading up on ice cream before this day is through is also not going to be good. What is a girl to do? (first world rhetorical question).

I need to put some hours into the schoolwork today and snap out of my funk. I just have to.
Time to Be Like Lee Nails, and Press On,
~Miss SugarCookie

2018-02-06 Two Things To Start Tuesday

It’s 6AM on a Tuesday and I’m awake. That’s OK, I have to get my kids up in just a little bit.

First – I’ve got a headache which is rare lately and at this point it seems to only happen about once a month, at the start of my cycle… so it’s not completely unexpected today which is cycle day 3. I’m no longer taking acetaminophen or ibuprofen (if I can help it) for these things. I switched to more natural remedies several moons ago now and I haven’t really looked back. Now, instead of taking a daily dose of Excedrin, which I was doing almost daily for a very long time, I take a curcumin (pronounced kir-que-men) and a caffeine.

Curcumin is an extract of turmeric which is a plant in the ginger family. I got turned on to this from a book I tried to read last year called “A Mind of Your Own”, which talked about the brain/body connection and centered on issues around women’s health and nutrition. The extract is supposed to have anti-anflamitory properties. I don’t really have a way to measure that in my system, but I think the reduction in the number of headaches I have is fairly solid proof that it is having a positive effect.

I take the caffeine to regulate the amount of caffeine in my body. Taking that morning dose is like drinking a few cups of coffee except that I don’t have to drink anything. It’s been especially essential this past month since I haven’t been drinking coffee because of my Whole 30. (btw, today is the last day – so celebrations will soon be in order.)

I think staying well hydrated is also a key factor in the improvement in my headache situation. I try to drink a fair amount of water. I almost always have my water bottle with me and when I see it, I’m reminded to drink. It seems like an easy thing to do, but most people don’t.

There have been a few occasions this past couple months when I’ve had a, now, out-of-the-ordinary, ailment and I can kind of gauge the severity and treat accordingly. I’m not opposed to OTC meds for that reason, but am super happy about eliminating them from my daily regimen.

Second – In other news, yesterday I worked more in one day than I have in the past 6 months. I think I put in 8 hours!! For those of you keeping score at home, that’s freaking amazing. Since I started my new gig, I have been kind of nervous about getting enough hours to make a decent paycheck and I think things are finally starting to ramp up to that sweet spot. Of course it’s all dependent on what is going on with the actual project that I am on, and this week is a big week, but based on what I’m hearing, the future looks bright and full of work. Woo hoo.

I may have also mentioned that I really like my new job, which is the bonus plan. Yesterday amidst the excitement around the first live production data stream being validated and team collaboration about support, I was given a solid virtual “good job” nod from several people. The person I am taking direct assignments from thanked me several times and told me that thing “x” I did was excellent. He introduced me to our client (via email) and laid out some of my credentials and then literally called me a “rockstar”. It felt great reading that.

The other kudos came from the guy that is the head of the company we are subcontracting for to do the project (it’s sort of complicated). We chatted directly on Slack and he also thanked me and expressed how glad he was I was on the team. He went on to say he was looking forward to ‘building amazing things” with me. Wow. Not only that, but he requested that I send some small ‘gift’ ideas so he can file them away for celebratory purposes in the future. Double wow.

Being appreciated never goes out of style. More companies and managers should be taking this to heart. I think that most employees are underappreciated. What people seem to fail to realize or remember is that people who feel like their contributions are valued and that they are making a difference, will work even harder and the productivity will be off-the-hook. It’s so easy to do, but often just gets overlooked in the grand scheme of things. So far, my new company and their business partners are doing it right!! How refreshing!

Well, it’s now 7AM and time to get the kids up.

It’s all Cool,
~Miss SugarCookie