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2020-09-22 The Benzo Trap
How do I feel about benzodiazepines? The title says it but doesn’t do justice for calling it out as the devils candy that it is. It’s evil. It’s a quick fix. An over prescribed band-aid which might have valid clinical use in a limited capacity for something, but not sleep. I’ll skip most of the…
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2020-09-21 What’s the Truth Behind All the Drama
Last night I had a dream I could not shake. I mean.. I dreamt the dream and woke up multiple times and then fell back to sleep into the same scenario twice. I’ve got a big assignment due for school. Something that’s going to take months of work and I’ve shown up to the scene…
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2020-09-08 The One About Shiny Objects and the Meaning of Life… with Kittens!! 🐱
(Spoiler alert.. this post is mired in introspection and peripheral questions. Which I’m apparently incapable of avoiding to get to my point.) Today I’m attempting once again to answer life’s ever burning question which is, of course… What’s the meaning and purpose of it all? I’ve been quite distracted lately. Running like that chicken in…
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2020-08-26 A Dreamy Reminder about the Path I’m On, and Why
Might have had a dream about you last night. Which was really a dream about me where you happened to make an appearance. Engaged in conversation about nothing in particular you gestured to the patch of grey hair that has appeared just above the hairline around your ear. Yeah, we’re all getting there together and…
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2020-08-25 Reading Past Repetition to Get to the Good Stuff
There’s no way I’m not going to not be tired today. That’s what less than four hours of sleep does to a person. Impossibly, it was not because of performance anxiety over the two hour training session I’m supposed to conduct today with a group of folks I’ve never met before. Incredibly I could not…
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2020-08-23 The Saturday AM Update
I woke up at about 6:30AM and for the first time in a while, I’m looking forward to the day. Something about a long string of days that involve stuff you’re not looking forward to that really messes with a persons groove. I’ve obviously been in a funk. I’ve obviously been a broken record, stuck…
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2020-07-13 Prognosis Pending
Mostly I’m just tired of saying I’m tired. Mostly I’m looking in the mirror and wondering if I’ll ever not feel tired. Or look tired. Some days it takes all the energy I have to appear awake and aware of what’s happening in the small, medium, and large circles I’m turning in these days. This…
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2020-07-01 Change is Sometimes Neither Fast Nor Easy
About 16 days ago I decided I had enough of feeling shitty every freaking day and set out on a mission to figure it out and turn things around. i decided the first step was to do a substance cleanse and get my body free of chemicals that alter my mood, help me sleep or…
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