Tag: anxiety

  • 2019-07-13 MFA Res Day 0 – Stepping into the Familiar

    2019-07-13 MFA Res Day 0 – Stepping into the Familiar

    Yesterday was a scramble to wrap up preparations and mid-afternoon I made the quick trip from my home-sweet-home to Nebraska City. Unlike a lot of the people in the program I live relatively close and don’t have far to go. Most traveling by car had a rough go because of all the flooding in the […]

  • 2018-11-05 The Missing Cat Was a Lie

    Yesterday I experienced high anxiety which I attributed to multiple factors including the fact that my cat was missing. She always paces by the back door to be let out and even stretches up and puts her paw on the door handle and pulls down. Most of my doors don’t have round knobs, They have […]

  • 2018-10-01 High Anxiety Monday

    How is it that, despite everything in my life right now being awesome, I still suffer from anxiety? It’s worse this week I think because I’m PMSing and I would love to reason with my brain that its fears are unfounded, but it’s not hearing my logic. I said, “Brain, we’ve done all sorts of […]

  • 2017-12-31 MFA Residency Day 3 – Space and Time Matter

    I broke away from the pack about 2:30 and took my leave of this building with a dual purpose in mind. I wanted to relieve myself of the claustrophobia of being hold-up in a somewhat confined space surrounded by freezing temperatures outside and I also needed to get tights or leggings for my outfit tomorrow. […]

  • 2017-12-29 MFA Residency Day 2 – First Impressions

    Yesterday went like this… Get up, treadmill, shower, eat, orientation, workshop, eat, lecture, lecture, lecture, eat, faculty reading, next day prep, go to bed. It was a lot to soak in. I enjoyed the lecture on short story writing and one proven formula to utilize for success, but my favorite was the one about poetry. […]

  • 2017-12-23 Christmas Chaos Brain

    I was awake at 4am and at Home Depot at 6:30am. Why oh why does my brain make me crazy? It’s just Christmas but in my head it’s chaos. I’m hosting Christmas Eve dinner and will roll right through to Christmas morning with the kids. It should be minimum cleaning, minimum gifts, and minimum cooking […]

  • 2017-12-18 On Routine and Some Things that Never Change

    I’m now pretty set in my morning routine. I’m a serious creature of habit. One of the things I’ve gotten really used to at this point is going to the gym right after dropping the kids off at school. I was previously not looking forward to starting a new job and having to give that […]

  • 2017-11-22 Flipping the Script

    Wow.. I haven’t written anything for a couple of days. I’ve also not exercised in a couple of days nor have I gotten my steps in. You could say I’ve pretty much deviated away from my normal script with regards to just about everything. I’m not sure why that is. I sort of decided on […]

  • 2017-11-10 The Good, the Bad, and the Really, Really Ugly

    Let’s start with really, really ugly.. This morning when I woke up the temperature outside was 21 degrees. Brrrrrr, what?! Sometimes I wonder why I even live here since I hate the cold so, so much. I think the answer is/was family way back when, but now it’s definitely the kids. When they are grown […]

  • 2017-08-20 Things You Can’t Control

    My anxiety is high today. As the minutes tick by it is getting worse. Why do I feel this way? I really hate that I get so nervous about things I can’t control. Like the weather for example. So here I am in Omaha, really, really close to the path of full totality for the […]