I was awake at 4am and at Home Depot at 6:30am. Why oh why does my brain make me crazy? It’s just Christmas but in my head it’s chaos. I’m hosting Christmas Eve dinner and will roll right through to Christmas morning with the kids. It should be minimum cleaning, minimum gifts, and minimum cooking yet I’m riddled with anxiety over things I think I need to do or buy. And each time I successfully finish something on my list my brain comes up with something g else. Something is seriously wrong with me.
The trip to Home Depot at 6am was for a gift I’ve been contemplating for some time now and when I finally decided to get it, they were sold out all over town and the soonest delivery via Amazon (and everyplace else I checked) was the 30th.
I checked target and Best Buy and bed bath and beyond and Lowe’s and Walmart. All sold out. So when I woke up at 4AM I decided to look more and found Home Depot had one. Of course it was a location 30 minute drive from my house. I called when they opened at 6AM to verify they really had one and once confirmed, I jumped in my car and went.
It’s just ridiculous though. This was a 30 dollar item and it makes no difference at all if I actually acquired it. I could have done without it and nobody would care. It’s all in my head. Good grief!
It’s now almost 12 hours later and I’m done with shopping (I hope) and done wrapping (I think) and ready for a nap (really). Any cleaning that needs to happen will just have to wait until tomorrow.. if my brain can let it go that long.
As with everything, time marches on and whatever doesn’t get done will really not even matter, in the grand scheme of things. If I can keep repeating that thought instead of the chaos, then maybe I can find some peace and quiet.
And now… it’s nap time.