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2020-12-24 It’s Always the Eve of Tomorrow
Christmas Eve today. On one hand it’s all just fine. I have everything I need here. My people, love, nourishment, warmth, opportunity, and am looking forward to tomorrow and the adventures we will find there. On the other hand, it just doesn’t feel right. It doesn’t feel like Christmas or the cusp of another residency…
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2020-12-20 Stand in the Mirror and Wait for Feedback
Sunday again. Lacking sleep again. Still working on that lecture. On and on. I’m trying not to freak out. You know, but there’s so much to do. Res. GLR. Christmas. Bills. You know I’ve got bills that are like 60 days past due and I can’t even begin. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.…
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2020-12-06 Catharsis
Writing, sharing, and letting go. Yesterday was good and necessary. The Funeral service was good. Strange to see so many people gathered together in close quarters. Strange to see so many people but not recognize them for the masks shielding their faces and emotions. Jim called the funeral home which was in Iowa to ask…
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2020-12-05 Stranger than Fiction
It’s 3:30am and I’m headed into what I hope is the last long day of a string of long days that has left me sleepless, and full of Negative emotion. Yesterday was the first day I didn’t go across the river to CB and the plans I tried to make with my brother didn’t pan…
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2020-12-04 Waving Whatever Color Flag One Waves to Simultaneously Wage War and Give Up 🏴☠️🚩🏳️
Today I woke at 4 am. Like you need to know that. Another delightful 4 hours of sleep and droning through another fucking day in the year 2020. Today I got so angry on the way to school I wanted to rip everyone not wearing a mask a new asshole. What a bunch of domestic…
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2020-11-30 Bow for November
My second full month in my new job is coming to a close. This morning I’m tasked with making breakfasts and lunches for my people and will of course get doing dishes and scooping litter boxes. And I’ll be working on the lit mag some. And hopefully finding time to read and write outside of…
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2020-11-22 Flip to B Square
It’s been a good couple of days. I feel satisfied. I’m adding up my stats today, to report out to my accountability buddy how I did this week and it looks like a pretty “meh.” But still I feel ok. Ok is pretty good, you know, all things considered. 🤷♀️ I have to be kind…
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2020-11-19 And Just Like Snap…
Nothing like getting news that wrecks the day. That was 1pm yesterday. I ignored a call from my ex-husband in the AM. One call gets dismissed automatically, because of conditioned behavior. I’ve learned that whatever that first call is, wait, and it could resolve itself, or simmer down, or be a possible a mistake/butt dial…
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