Miss SugarCookie

Category: journal

2020-07-31 Adios July.. Don’t Let the Door Git Ya!

Remember all that I was saying yesterday about riding out the hormonal storm until the crashing waves calm down? Yeah, just effff that. It really is easy to talk logic than to put it into practice sometimes. Listen. Yesterday was a bitch. Work sucked. And at the end of the day I was on the…

July 31, 2020
2020-07-30 Thursday Status Update

According to my FitBit I’m supposed to be getting my period today. I mean, it’s not 8am, but it hasn’t happened yet. I put myself in a holding pattern waiting for that sweet release, which is typically followed by a leveling of my emotions— the amplitude of the wave hovers closer to the resting point.…

July 30, 2020
2020-07-28 ‘A’ for Effort: The Grad Party Edition

And just like that half a week goes by. When they say “if you blink, you’ll miss it,” they weren’t kidding. There’s a lot of things I could gravitate toward writing about with this 30 minute set, but probably the most relevant is closing the loop with regard to my last post. That was 5…

July 28, 2020
2020-06-23 Reframing Negatives Into Positives

I’m gonna go with another 30 minute set today. I’ve not got much new anyhow. How about a re-frame session? Yesterday I had a great conversation with my friend, T, and one of the new thoughts that came out of it was the approach of taking a negative thought and reframing it into a positive.…

July 23, 2020
2020-07-21 Strategic Planning

I’m giving myself 30 minutes today to walk. Then I’m gonna get into the thick of it. I’m gonna be heads down getting stuff done. I have to stop procrastinating all the things. More specifically, holding up my end of the bargain on my lit mag project (think, paperwork to make our lit mag more…

July 21, 2020
2020-07-19 Wrestling with Impermanence

I’ve been putting some serious thought into quitting my job. I’m checking the calendar to make sure the current stirring isn’t coming from an emotional place. Or, if it is, it’s persistent and genuine. And I’m also holding steady where I’m at to see if, like many ideas, isn’t because of just where I stand…

July 20, 2020
2020-07-16 Thursday’s Train Schedule 🚂

Today I have my follow up appointment with my doctor. It’s at 7am. I’ve been awake since 4:41 (Earlier really). It’s 5:16 now. I just can’t lie in bed awake anymore. Did I try hard enough to meditate and focus on my breathing and the mundane to fall asleep again. Hard enough to give up.…

July 16, 2020
2020-07-15 The End is the Beginning

Spoiler alert. The world ends with a whimper and not a bang. I traveled into the future yesterday and found that all endings are an open door to the beginning and all beginnings are glasses full of possibility. Drink it down people. Get drunk on it and savor every drop. Realize that when it’s half…

July 15, 2020