Miss SugarCookie

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  • 2019-08-21 Tick-Tock

    2019-08-21 Tick-Tock

    I’m checking the calendar again. How long has it been since my last cortisone shot? How many days until my next period? How many months until my wedding? How many days until my next assignment is due? And at the moment, the biggest elephant in the room.. how many days until next Monday, when I…

  • 2019-08-20 How Much is Enough?

    2019-08-20 How Much is Enough?

    How many things can I cross off my list? How many things do I need to cross off to feel as if I’m doing enough? That I’ve done enough? Enough for what? To earn my keep here? To feel like I’ve actually accomplished something substantial and worthwhile? To earn some reward or rest or treating…

  • 2019-08-18 An Abundance of Fresh Water and Wild Wanderings

    2019-08-18 An Abundance of Fresh Water and Wild Wanderings

    “The poem is the lie we tell to reveal the truth.” It’s a comment/quote that came back on my packet .5 and I’m a little stuck on that, but not in a bad way. In a very satisfying, mind-winding way. This is the first semester in the program that a mentor has given me such…

  • 2019-08-15 Nightmares and the Spoken Poem

    2019-08-15 Nightmares and the Spoken Poem

    I don’t have much to muse about today. I could ponder longer the nightmare that I had last night which was super creepy but I kinda don’t want it to linger any longer than necessary. What was interesting was that I was having trouble falling asleep and at about midnight I got up and went…

  • 2019-08-14 Wednesday Wanderings

    2019-08-14 Wednesday Wanderings

    Yesterday was one wild day (mostly in my mind). It started with that early morning emotional upheaval in my brain and I was sort-of charged up most of the day. Though not charged up enough to write anymore after 9am. I also tried to read in the afternoon and my brain would not have it.…

  • 2019-08-13 “Everything Now”

    2019-08-13 “Everything Now”

    At residency Jackson introduced me to a band. It’s not a new band, they’ve been around, but they are new to me. That’s how my life goes. That’s how everyone’s life goes, you know. You don’t know something until you know it. That’s why we need people. Other people. To know things and show us…

  • 2019-08-12 Into it Now

    2019-08-12 Into it Now

    My focus is shifting. The days of my life have changed and they are very different now. Adjustments are always tough, even the good ones. You have to let go of pieces of you, some that you kinda like. You have to recognize that, even if you are going in the right direction, the road…

  • 2019-09-11 Hung Over Sunday Status

    2019-09-11 Hung Over Sunday Status

    We had a shindig at the house last night and I’m feeling it this morning. Jim has a lot of relatives and so when we have a family gathering, it’s a pretty good size crew. No representation from my side. My one brother and one of my sisters live in Colorado and my other sister…