If there’s one thing I’ve learned in life it is that I am the ONLY person responsible for my happiness. For support in all the other colors of the rainbow, I will gladly lean on those around me who I can trust in times of need, but for that pesky fleeting golden ticket known as happiness, it is up to NUMERO UNO! And we’re not talking about a card game. 

The reality of the last couple weeks of my life is that each day has brought a new kind of struggle. Each challenge piled on the top seems more like a brick than a straw and the camel’s back is broke, along with ankles, knees, and toes.

If I had a therapist, I might have poured myself out like an angry spiced chai, all over the floor. And probably got a dose of assurance and validation in return. If I had a therapist, I would thank my lucky stars for her and her wisdom. If I had a therapist I would be able to regain my composure and formulate a plan for tomorrow. 

Today is the first day of August and I’ve done a LOT of thinking. I’ve been in this “woe” of a funk and let it take over the Miss SugarCookie Show. I’ve given everything of myself to other people and harbored resentment, sadness, and self pity for not receiving much in return. 

Then, as I sat in my bed and began writing I had an epiphany. The one at the top of this post. I reminded myself that I have the power to change how I feel. I have the power to make different choices and as if by magic, I started to feel better. I actually went to sleep feeling peaceful and even hopeful for tomorrow. 

And I had a great sleep! 

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It’s now August 2nd and I woke up embracing the same notion I had before I fell asleep. I decided I’m going to make today about me and let go of worry about everyone else. I’m going to treat myself to a few of the activities I love and see how far down the yellow brick road I can get with that. 

I let go of some pesky emails I’d been dreading following up on. I updated my author website with some new publication updates (yay to having more positive news to share), and even did a little prep work on another project. And…. After my house chores were done, I made my way to the basement to finish the most recent episode of The Bachelorette. So satisfying! 

I hate that it’s a “to be continued” finish though. Now I have to wait till next Tuesday to learn the outcome. Ugh!!😩 

I digress. 

My hour here’s about up anyhow and next on my list is a long hot shower. Imagine that!! I haven’t showered since Monday. Ewwww. 

Ok. That’s enough. It’s time to git! If you’re still reading… thank you! And I hope you find a little golden slice of happiness for yourself today! 

Peace and love, 

~Miss SugarCookie