It’s now been 4 weeks since the insertion of the hormone boost and I swear I have less energy and focus now. It sucks. I guess I was unreasonably hopeful this change would make me feel amazing and I still can’t stay awake much past 9PM. Sucks sucks!! Am I destined to be lame and boring forever and never able to do fun things with people at night?
I now work all day and am back to spending all of my precious minutes, the ones I have where I’m actually awake and energized, on responsible adulting. Then at the end of the day, when that’s all done I just want to sink into the couch and chill. Is this what my life is destined to be?
Jim bought concert tix for a show I wanted to go to and I’m just hoping I have enough energy for that. I just need to snap out of this. It’s not a new problem. Matt always complained. At least Jim is supportive and says we’ll figure it out.
In other news I had to waste 30 minutes of my time talking to my ex husband this morning already about nothing important. I texted to confirm some switch up on dates for the kids and he decided to call. So what could have been a 3 minute text exchange turned into 30 minutes. I feel compelled to listen to him, and not make waves or he gets bent. I think he likes to think we’re buds and he can dish to me and I’m happy to listen. He wants to make sure we’re still cool. I want that too, and therefore I have to play nice. Still 30 minutes means 30 less minutes for my cardio set (and daily writing). Whatev. 🙄
My furnace is busted and full of water pooped around the unit and floor and is inoperable at the moment. He spent 10 minutes telling me how to fix that, as if he could diagnose that sight unseen. Still, if he’s right about it being clogged with hard water buildup then I guess that will be 10 minutes well spent (and sabe me some $$$). I’m not home now to look at it, but may go later to check it again. It’s better I figured this out now too I suppose as opposed to October or November.
The weather has turned into Fall all of a sudden and it’s going to be cloudy and rainy for the next week. That’s not helping my dreary mood.
I had one Meetup yesterday that was cancelled and two today. That’s a bummer. Matt reached out to me around my bday and wanted to take me to lunch. WTF am I supposed to do with that. I was caught off guard AND felt guilty for some unknown reason so I accepted. We’re supposed to go tomorrow and I need to cancel that too. I just want to cancel and not reschedule. It’s a bad idea. Last time we met for lunch was a complete disaster. Why would he want to do that again??! Whatev. 🙄
Ok.. it’s time for me to get busy and try and pull myself out of this icky funk. Perhaps a coffee will help. It is Thirsty Thursday after all. 😉
Get Caffinated and Go,