Tag: relationship

  • 2018-01-28 Sunday Status Update – Totally Phoning This One In

    Happy Sunday People! Let’s make this quick so we can get back to the good life… Sleep.. Average 7 hours 36 minutes a night. Exercise.. Average 22,372 per day. Healthy eating.. Day 21 of 30 of the Whole 30. See yesterday’s post for the details. Employment status.. Full time gig, working part time hours. Student…

  • 2017-11-16 The Measuring Stick

    Spoiler alert. This one is long, has backstory, AND poetry. It’s clear that I’m in a much better place today than I was this time last year. I don’t really need a reminder, but sometimes it’s good to have a measuring stick. Some way to know just how far I’ve come. The value in me…

  • 2017-05-21 Orion’s Belt

    Last night Z and I were watching “Stranger Things” and at the end of one of the episode the camera pans up to the sky. It’s a sky full of stars. My heart sinks just a little. Looking up at the stars was one of those things I loved to do with Matt. Whether it…

  • 2017-05-01 Quite the Day Indeed

    Yesterday was emotionally draining. To be fair, the last week and a half has been emotionally draining, so yesterday sort of feels like the crescendo to all of that. I really could not take being stuck in a holding pattern at the precipice of unraveling any longer. I had to take a step. That step…

  • 2017-04-30 Closure Conversation?

    I’ve been saying all along, at every turn, that I need closure but that I may never have it. I may never have that conversation. I may never get the chance to say all the things I wanted to say AFTER it was all over. All the things I’ve ever said were things I wanted…

  • 2017-04-30 It’s All Just Rotten

    I probably wrote a couple of weeks ago that Matt had texted me a couple of times. And then we had a phone call on random Tuesday night. The next day is when I wrote “Waking Up Wednesday Wondering Why”. I don’t have to wonder more, now. Because now I’ve narrowed it down. Matt wants…

  • 2017-04-28 The Great Unraveling

    I was going to try to sleep on the plane but my brain had other plans for me. I watched the sunset down into the soft desert hills as we ascended to our cruising altitude. I tried to just focus on the beauty and enjoy it but that was not in the cards either. Instead…

  • 2017-04-12 Waking Up Wednesday Wondering Why

    I’m so glad Tuesday is over. I’m so glad it’s Wednesday now and I’m waking up and get the chance to start over. Even more than that, I’m glad I had 7 hours of uninterrupted sleep. It was dream-filled sleep, but I’ll take that any night over waking up at 2 or 3 or 4…