It’s been a hot minute since I’ve written anything blog worthy, and this might be no exception but I’m doing it anyway.

Actually I wrote a few sentences over the past week but it came from a place of emotional unrest and frustration. Not to worry friends, the storm clouds have abated and the burden of severely late monthly cycles and full moons has been lifted. The skies look clear (at the moment) and despite it being Monday, the superhero spirit of “I can do anything I set my mind to” has been restored.

It was a great weekend actually. We rode bikes around lake Cunningham (our new favorite ride) .. twice. And swam in the pool twice and capped the weekend with tacos and margaritas. We also got lots of house chores done and all the kids are pretty much settled in with their summer routines. Save for maybe C who now needs to find a new gig, but that’s on my plan of attack this week. 

“Plan of attack” … good gravy I really do sound like I’m a superhero gearing up for battle. Next thing you know I’ll be evoking my powers of invisibility and keen grasp of the obvious. That’s me, Miss SugarCookie, AKA Captain Obvious. 😜

So, yes, there have been ups and downs these past few weeks but wouldn’t you much prefer to read about how it all turned out ok despite the sleepless nights than the actual drama that caused the sleepless nights? 

I dunno.. maybe you’re a drama seeker and/or want that dose of reality. Maybe you want to know my life is just as fucked up as everyone else’s despite all the gifts I’ve been given. If that’s true, you’re not alone. There are lots of people out there listening and watching and reading to satisfy a desire for connectivity and so they can feel less alone. 

Last I checked there were almost 8 billion people on the planet, yet, we often feel alone. Alone like nobody knows how we feel or understands us. Alone like we have no one to talk to or turn to and that’s a pretty shitty feeling. I know, I’ve often felt that way and despite feeling alone, we are never really alone.

There’s someone (or rather lots of someone’s) out there who understand and empathize with your plight. It’s easy to forget so during those challenging days when I’m overloaded with hormones because my period is 23 days late or something has happened with my kids (like C letting go of his job), or I get troubling news, I just have to repeat the mantra, “I am not alone” and/or reach out to someone I know who will care. 

Alternatively (and historically) I’ve blogged about it, hoping to find a few random strangers who will care, but in the past few weeks, I haven’t been very motivated to write it all out. Perhaps I’m entering a new phase of my life. Perhaps some of the other life-balancing changes I’ve made are working. Perhaps just saying “no” works for me.

And boy oh boy did I say “no” to a potentially (definitely) emotionally charged situation this past weekend. Really REALLY dodged a bullet with that one. All thanks to my newest essential life skill, saying “no.” 

That’s a whole other post though and my time is up now. 

I hope you’ve enjoyed not reading all the messy details of my overly dramatic and sometimes fucked up life.

Peace and love, 

~Miss SugarCookie