August is officially over half over. The year is over half over. My life is over half over. 

Oh no?! Another melancholy post about existential dread and crooning over what the purpose of life is and what it all means??!! 

No. Nope. Not today. 

A few weeks ago (or maybe it was just last week) I did a dive into the fact that I have the power to choose my mood. The power to see the frustration and rotten circumstances and like some magic meditation, see it, even feel it, and then just let it go. I can acknowledge that it exists and sit with that knowledge like holding a heavy stone. I can feel the weight of the world crumbling to dust and then set it down. 

Then I can choose to buy myself a happy birthday balloon at the dollar tree and bake myself a pink strawberry cake with pink strawberry frosting. It’s a thing. It’s happening. 

Not only that but today I mustered the courage to post a new poem on social media. Not only that but my daughter comes home this weekend and that’s worth celebrating more than anything. 

I’m holding tight to these positive things and trying very hard to set down all the other heavy stones: The recurring migraine stone, the mom issues stone, the ticking clock on a TGLR poetry team meeting stone. 

It’s Friday and my day is full of stupid chores and errands. Driving for prescriptions, doing dishes, picking up new fence slats so my hubby can fix the parts of the fence that were wrecked by falling trees in that wicked storm a few weeks ago. I also need to water the indoor plants, scoop litter boxes, and probably do dishes a second time. Cmon people, ever heard of reusing the same glass twice? 

Anyway… I’ve not done much planning around August and have kind of been holding my breath around a few of the “maybe it will/maybe it won’t” happen things. 

“Things” 

As a reader don’t you hate that word? Like..  just say what it is or isn’t already and quit being so nebulous or mysterious. 

I guess I hate it too. So those “things” need to reveal themselves already, I’m ready. Let me have it Universe. What say you? 

Will today be the day? If it is, you dear reader, will be the fourth (or fifth) to know. 😂

Before I dive into the errands and chores I’m gifting myself with cardio and music on my beloved elliptical machine and that almost always improves my mood too. Something about the increased heart rate or released serotonin levels. Something about all my favorite music. Something about multitasking and time maximization that makes me really happy. 

It makes me excited about the future and little projects that pop into my head. I hear a song and it makes me think of some person or experience. What I’d like to do is create a playlist of songs and then pair that with what I’ve written about that song or person or experience. Doesn’t that sound like a fun project? 

In this moment it does, so why not?! 

Three…

Two…

One…

Let’s go! 

I guess the point is… it can be whatever you want. you just have to decide what that is.

Today I’ve decided to be happy. If If had a therapist, she might say I’m cured. 😂

Thanks for reading. 

Peace and love. 

~Miss SugarCookie