Miss SugarCookie

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This stream of consciousness is intended to be an unfiltered account of my journey to fight my way to a healthier, happier life. One day at a time, one step at a time, one organically-grown-emotionally-raw blog post at a time…

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2020-06-05 Absolute Power Corrupts Absolutely

But does it have to? I DONT TALK POLITICS. Don’t ask me to talk politics. If I’m in the room and the subject comes up, I get angry. I have anger that rises in me from some festering fissure deep inside. Why do I hate politics so? It doesn’t matter what side you are on.…
2020-06-04 Elephants and Mice and Men

My love was exhausted after work yesterday. He skipped dinner, had a hang out with his son, finished his work and went to bed early. I was all alone in the house. All alone with my thoughts and starting at a screen. It’s past curfew, and there’s no where I can go. Nothing I can…
2020-06-03 What a Virgo living in the age of Aquarius does In a pandemic

Set it and forget it. Part of the appeal of doing something right or having trust in someone else doing something that needs to get done and having confidence in their ability is the “set it and forget it” principal. Do it, or ask someone else to do it, and then let you mind let…
2020-06-02 Introducing… The Good Life Review

I’ve sent some of my darlings out into the universe and it’s so tough to let them go when you know life is tough and people are critical and maybe they (my babies) are not wanted or needed and their message will land in the hands of someone too busy with chaos or wrapped up…
2020-06-01 What other choice do I have?

A friend of mine texted me out of the blue to ask how I was doing. I said I’m OK, but that I think it’s “the end of days” going on right now. I’m not sure if this hellfire of strangeness is biblical, but it sure feels like it. It would be just like the…
2020-05-29 “Everything’s cool as long as I’m getting thinner”

That title is a line from the Lily Allen song appropriately titled “The Fear”. Half of the lyrics are about life and mass consumption and the way we seek after fortune and how society is all fucked up. The other half is confessional. It’s Admitting to confusion and not knowing what’s real and feeling taken…
2020-05-28 Hide and Seek

I start walking. I start writing. That’s my way. Lately I’ve felt like it’s all just the same shit on a different day. I’m inches away from getting my MFA in Poetry and I haven’t written anything worthy of a poem in months. A few times when I took a class with the “Todfather”, I…
2020-05-27 Paranoia

Dear Diary, I question your motives and intentions. I question the nature of our relationship. And I question the validity of your perceived value. It’s impossible to write without considering ones audience. Without the audience, there’s no hook. There’s no message. There’s no purpose. Or is there? I read a book of poetry once that…
2020-05-26 Nothing to Read Here, It’s all just a Dream

This week is going to be a doozie. Today is going to be a doozie. I’ve got meetings solid from 9:30 through to 5:30 with a one hour break mid- afternoon. I’m still not 100% recovered from last week and will have to try really hard to put my game face on. It was a…
2020-05-25 The Sign on the Door Says “Beware of Dragons”…

… but I open it anyway. I’m not even sure where to start today. Should I begin with the 5am wake up and subsequent spin-brain keeping me from going back to sleep? Perhaps I should start by reflecting on that conversation I had yesterday with my Texas Bestie where she said her new motto was…
2020-05-24 Sushi Sunday Anyone? 🍣

We had a glorious thunderstorm last night (apparently) and I woke at the end of that, happy to hear the rain as I’ve done some planting of annuals in pots the last week or so and every day it rains is a day I don’t have to. Thanks Universe! I also went back to sleep…
2020-05-23 Laundry Day 🐱

Yesterday was the worst day I’ve had in a long time. I was on such an emotional edge almost all day and barely made it through all the things I had to do. I participated in an early meeting with a client in which my only responsibility was to take notes and have my brain…