Miss SugarCookie

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This stream of consciousness is intended to be an unfiltered account of my journey to fight my way to a healthier, happier life. One day at a time, one step at a time, one organically-grown-emotionally-raw blog post at a time…

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2020-09-23 Random Facts About Having 4 Cats (Among Other Things)

Having four cats means you have to scoop litter boxes everyday. This morning I started crying in my kitchen. I was loading the dishwasher when Alexa started telling me about memorial plans for Ruth B.G. as a part of my daily news briefing. I had not really grieved the loss yet. It just happened. I…
2020-09-22 The Benzo Trap

How do I feel about benzodiazepines? The title says it but doesn’t do justice for calling it out as the devils candy that it is. It’s evil. It’s a quick fix. An over prescribed band-aid which might have valid clinical use in a limited capacity for something, but not sleep. I’ll skip most of the…
2020-09-21 What’s the Truth Behind All the Drama

Last night I had a dream I could not shake. I mean.. I dreamt the dream and woke up multiple times and then fell back to sleep into the same scenario twice. I’ve got a big assignment due for school. Something that’s going to take months of work and I’ve shown up to the scene…
2020-09-16 Kittens of the Castle 🐱🏰

Starting late again today and short on time. I had Better sleep last night as Jim forced me to keep the cats out of the bedroom, for my own good. The two bigger cats, Doug and Kayla are both visibly upset by the newest member of our household.. Gus 🐱 Doug is clearly stress eating…
2020-09-15 Monday Colored Glasses

I could do without insomnia for a while. I could do without my mind spinning endlessly on things I can’t do anything about. I could use a day all by myself, no responsibilities, no work, no chores. What’s that called? A vacation? Perhaps soon. I could also do without rejection greeting me first thing in…
2020-09-14 Monday Blues

It’s Monday. That’s not news. I’ve got 3 weeks left at my stupid job. That’s not news either, but it does make me feel like.. like.. it’s about good goddamned time. Today I’ve been scheduled for back to back meetings for 4 hours. That’s not living. That’s having your life drained away. There’s so much…
2020-09-12 Rainy Days and Random Thoughts

I’ve been walking on the treadmill for about six minutes now and though my thoughts are varied, nothing feels noteworthy. I guess some days are like that. I could launch into a useless diatribe on how my family, after being somewhat successful in getting me to abandon my BAE (my iPhone SE first gen), now…
2020-09-11 Does Time Have Memory?

Time is a construct. It’s a concept developed by humans to keep track, count, measure, and communicate. We also use instances in time to attempt to accurately remember. Humanity has many flaws and we’re all afflicted by the loss of time and an inability to retain the sharp details of experience. The farther away we…
2020-09-08 The One About Shiny Objects and the Meaning of Life… with Kittens!! 🐱

(Spoiler alert.. this post is mired in introspection and peripheral questions. Which I’m apparently incapable of avoiding to get to my point.) Today I’m attempting once again to answer life’s ever burning question which is, of course… What’s the meaning and purpose of it all? I’ve been quite distracted lately. Running like that chicken in…
2020-09-01 New Phone, Who Dis?

Let me start by saying that I often have thoughts in my head which are very amusing to me. I giggle a little and then think.. that’s so funny, I should tweet that. Then I second guess myself and question if it’s really funny or just funny in my own head. Then I giggle again.…
2020-08-29 Girls Just Wanna…

… Eat Tacos!!! 🌮🌮🌮 It’s Saturday and I’ve done a few things but I’ve also kinda wasted the day away. The sun is already in its daily slide down the west side of the big Nebraska blue and I’m just not satisfied. I just need a little more time. I just always want more. I’ve…
2020-08-26 A Dreamy Reminder about the Path I’m On, and Why

Might have had a dream about you last night. Which was really a dream about me where you happened to make an appearance. Engaged in conversation about nothing in particular you gestured to the patch of grey hair that has appeared just above the hairline around your ear. Yeah, we’re all getting there together and…