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  • 2017-09-07 I’m So Done With Being On the Edge

    I think I am finally finished with the edging. Hooray!! I should stop and treat myself to something I love to celebrate that success (if I am following my own advice that is). The lines are good and the bricks are somewhat packed in (as much as I can with my body weight). I had…

  • 2017-09-06 Being Behind Becomes a Balancing Act

    Last week I was all about it being a new month and all the things I was going to get done. Now we are six days in and I’m still stuck on trying to get this backyard project done and balancing that with getting enough other physical activity to be satisfied and doing all the…

  • 2017-09-03 Sunday Status Update – Not

    I overworked myself yesterday and then proceeded to have a long and lovely evening followed by not enough sleep. I pushed through this morning and did some micro adjustments to the edging and then went for a walk around my Walnut Creek. I’m exhausted now but have lots on my mind. I need a nap…

  • 2017-09-02 Saturday Triple Play

    Yesterday I worked tirelessly on my edging project, including returning/exchanging bags of paving sand to Home Depot because I got the wrong ones first time around. In my infinite wisdom I had decided to lay all the bricks in first (which I did early this week) to get a nice clean line just the way…

  • 2017-09-01 September Strategy

    I am rolling into month #3 of not being employed. I’ve checked the numbers and I’m still good with regards to the financial aspect of this little experiment. I took a couple months to spend some extra special quality time with the kids and to work on “me” with the intent of not thinking or…

  • 2017-09-01 The Daily Dose is Doing Me Wrong

    I woke up at about 7 with a nasty crimp in my neck and am quick to take some over the counter (OTC) pain meds. At this point, I am finally getting around to reading that book I started in January about health and wellness and diet and and how the mind and body are…

  • 2017-08-31 Adios August

    Fitbit says I slept for 3 hours and 25 minutes last night. I don’t care. I’m feeling a little guilty for the long evening but I really lost track of time and didn’t know it had gotten so late. I want to wait an appropriate amount of time until I apologize. I also am really…

  • 2017-08-30 Welcome to Episode 242

    I’ve had such an incredible day. I almost feel as though I’m outside myself and watching this day go by like I’m watching some sort of episode of a show. Yesterday I was all about letting my brain linger on all the questions of why my mood seems so outside of my control and today…

  • 2017-08-29 Don’t Question It, Just Enjoy

    I’m really trying to make sense of the fact that I was in a better mood today. I should just enjoy it, but my brain is treating this like another puzzle to be solved. Why brain. Why? All last week I was in a funky mood and if you are following along and read yesterday,…

  • 2017-08-28 There are Worse Things to Fail At

    Friday the 25th was the last time I wrote and that was all about celebrating successes. In the days leading up to that, I was kind of in a funk and not really feeling positive about anything at all and was certainly not feeling like celebrating. My birthday was the next day and I had…

  • 2017-08-25 Celebrating Successes

    This one has been stewing for a while. I put it in the crock pot in February and I think it’s about ready. It’s about setting goals, but more specifically about meeting goals that have been set already. My objective this year, very generically, was to have a happier, healthiier life. That’s too broad to…

  • 2017-08-24 It’s Just Lunch

    Quite some time ago, I promised my ex-husband I would take him to lunch. I don’t remember what the reason was but I typically don’t forget when I owe someone something or if I have made a promise. In the past few weeks he and I have had several conversation and he eluded to the…

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